Supposed Meaning

I remember saying some time ago that inhibition and knowning too much (as opposed to childhood ignorance/innocence) is killer. That if I could forget the things I learned and be totally new and stuff to everything, I'd be a much better person.

That "childhood ignorance", that don't know, don't care attitude over things in life, more innocent than cavalier... It's a good state to be in, because you really start to take in everything that you come across, you know? Like moving here for the first time, that was one of those new-ignorant states of mind, getting to know everyone and stuff. Totally out of my comfort zone, and yet, (in hindsight,) I enjoyed every minute of it.

After spending my first semester in college getting to grips with what I really want to do and who I am and what's best for me, I've also come to notice a lot of big changes in other people as well. Plenty of people who said they wouldn't drink... Now drink frequently, sometimes even in the middle of the week. I've seen people's childhood innocence sort of disappear as they grow up rapidly in this new environment, away from their childhood sanctuaries, into this contemporary real world.

Maybe I can think of this semester as the cocoon that separated us from young adulthood. But that'd discount all of the progress that happens all the time--back in high school, or even after this semester.

I mean, even without that, I can say at the very least that this semester definitely brought about fast changes in some of us. I know changes are hard to notice even if you're looking for them. It's easier to look for them in hindsight, though, as the sum of all changes.

I've often thought about why people do the stupid things they do, why people do things so blatantly against the law or against reason as to be called insane. I've thought about this more and more these days. People love getting drunk, and while I drink on occasion I don't seem to treasure drunkenness as much as other people. Maybe it's more of an issue of having to let go of yourself to really appreciate yourself. To maybe become someone you aren't for just a little bit, you know, because being totally the same is boring. ;p

Maybe it's what people keep telling me about life, that you should put some balance to it, that you should add some variety. Too much of the same thing requires a drastic bout of randomness now and then.

People do drastic things, people do crazy things, people like going and getting drunk and other things for a change, people want to get rid of that inhibition and return to ignorance. To not care the way you normally do. To become someone else, I guess.

Bah. 4am and this is the longest serious thing I've written in months. It's funny because I know at heart that everything I'm saying right now means absolutely nothing in the long run. It's just another distraction.

Open Panel

Local activist Nancy Harter asks Representative Judy Baker a question at an open panel, Thursday night.

Mike Tigas
Local activist Nancy Harter asks Representative Judy Baker a question at an open panel, Thursday night.

This one isn't published, but it's one of my favorites from the set I took.

Two

Officers and members of the Missouri International Student Council eat together at the Council's inaugural dinner, Saturday night.  New officers were announced and founding officers were recognized at the event.

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Officers and members of the Missouri International Student Council eat together at the Council's inaugural dinner, Saturday night. New officers were announced and founding officers were recognized at the event.

Published? Booyahkasha

The First

Student Fee Review Committee Chair Jason Blunk discusses with members of the MSA senate and GPC about a possible fee increase on Tuesday evening.  The committee debated funding of the Savitar yearbook, health fees for part-time students, and budgeting for a new $250,000 TV Studio.

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Student Fee Review Committee Chair Jason Blunk discusses with members of the MSA senate and GPC about a possible fee increase on Tuesday evening. The committee debated funding of the Savitar yearbook, health fees for part-time students, and budgeting for a new $250,000 TV Studio.

Published? No. Like, 11 photo assignments were given out, so a lot had to get cut for anyway. I'll get farther along with this soon. It's a start, it's one photo assignment complete.

stfu n00b!

I walked into the Maneater news meeting last afternoon with Travis Pringle, just to see what was up. Just to see if we could do this. Photo editor looks a lot like David Spade. (Go here and scroll down to Ryan Gladstone, lol.) Picked myself up a photo assignment for the night--just a committee meeting. I bet the people in that room could smell newbie coming off of me. I bet they could tell. Taylor, the one girl who led our Summer Welcome small group (by "our" I mean, Adams and I), was there.

Turns out Taylor McKinney, the person I remember from Summer Welcome is the McKinney in "Holt/McKinney", names on the ballot as candidates for MSA (≈ student government) President and Vice President.

Not to mention I totally didn't know that one of the people talking in the room was the current MSA Vice President.

Ryan said, figure out who's important in the room and work accordingly. And man, I sure janked that up. Oh well, first time, I got a few decent shots anyway. Come Thursday we'll see if any of it can be put to use.

And as of 10:58am today, my request to transfer from the College of Engineering to the School of Journalism has been turned in. It's already been a pretty interesting week. I haven't yet found any gut feeling against doing this. I think I'll like this.